August 12, 2013
Time in Ontario with my family flew by. My cousin's wedding was a busy rush of last-minute DIY details. Everything came together so wonderfully. The whole day- from the ceremony on the beach to the handmade aesthetic of the reception- was absolutely beautiful (especially considering she planned everything while living in Iowa). I am already missing Lake Huron fiercely. There weren't enough beach days and there definitely wasn't adequate time to see all the old friends I wanted to see. I suppose all I can do is look forward to going again at Christmas. I've been back in Boston for a while now, confronted with the all the hard edged realities I left behind. There's my apartment, waiting to be packed up and moved across the river. There is the weighty feeling of indecision about my future.
August 7, 2013
While at Haystack I took any opportunity I had to get off the main campus. As much as I loved the woods, it was nice to pop into town every few days to remind myself that the actual world existed beyond our secluded creative bubble. Sometimes it was just a quick ride to grab a six pack of beer or fried popcorn shrimp. On a few trips, I tagged along with others from the Fibers workshop to the local junkyard. Haystack attendees have scavenged the local dump for many years, searching for hidden treasure amongst the mud and discards. The contrast between the natural Maine landscape and the mountains of garbage was striking and heartbreaking. There was something cathartic about trying to find beauty somewhere buried in the trash.
January 2, 2013
I'm back from four days on Lake Huron. I hadn't been to my hometown in almost two years. I was honestly at the point where I was aching to be there. There is a part of me that will always belong to that place. I feel a gravitational pull to the water. I spent the entire time with family and my dog. It really couldn't have been a more relaxing, wonderful Christmas.
A new year is here. I've been making some big changes recently and I want the change to keep coming. I want to continue to make my own positive experiences. Yoga is something that has quickly become very important to me. I started at the end of September and now I practice as often as I can manage. If I haven't been for a while my body misses it and my emotional and mental state suffers. It brings a focus to my life that I have been craving for far too long. It brings quiet on days when my head is a hive of angry bees. Days when my chest is a water pipe under pressure.
I am formulating in my mind a set of intentions for 2013. I hesitate to call them resolutions for fear of sinking the ship before it sails. I am tempted to bypass the traditional bullet points of dos and don'ts that tend to set one up for failure, but I can't resist making some goals- nor can I resist the opportunity to write a list. Hurrah for lists! While it is true that all I feel certain of is the uncertainty of my future, here's what I have so far:
1. Create, create, create!
2. Be kinder to myself.
3. Take a class (or two or three) in something new or unfamiliar.
4. Stop buying cheap, disposable fashion.
5. Continue to dedicate time and patience to my yoga practice.